No one understands my depression.?
My Mom always says that I get everything I want. Yes, I do, that’s not why I am depressed. I have had several deaths in my family in the past 9 months, people very close to me, including my Dad, and Grandmom. No, I was depressed before that, but people have been noticing a lot lately. I have ALWAYS been what you would call a “negative person”/ I am 13, almost 14. I am ugly, overweight, and honestly have no good qualities physically, or mentally. I have started to cut, like in the past few days, but I can’t find anything sharp enough to make me bleed. I have always liked hurting myself, whether it was physical, or mental. I have always liked to torture myself. Like say to myself, “You’re ugly. No one likes you. Your dumb. No one will ever like you”, and other stuff like that. Lately many people have been saying that I always look miserable, and mad. I am, but I just say thats my face. My Mom has been questioning therapy or going to a psychologist or psychiatrist, but I always say that I’m fine. Also, recently, I have had 2 anxiety attacks. On the bad side, like I was shaking uncontrollably, and I couldn’t walk and I was breathing heavy and all of that. I don’t really have a question, I just need to vent, but if you somehow have answers, that would be great. Thanks!
You are right in saying no one understands your depression. We can understand depression but not having walked in your shoes it is impossible to feel what you do. I will say no matter what you have been through and feel. you must think of those still here for you and accept their help. They do care for you and want you to be happy. You have just started on the journey of life and even your looks will change. Try to find a better outlook as it does make a person grow more beautiful. Give yourself time to understand and deal with your problems. You are never alone.
No one ever will understand darling, and I’m sorry. Because everyone goes through phases where they feel depressed, and for some people ‘depressed’ is breaking a nail, while for others being ‘depressed’ is for something that is really hard- deaths, self-hate ecetera.
I advise that you go and see a psychiatrist, it sounds daunting, I know, but it’s surprising how much just talking and letting it all out can help, I know it’s hard, I promise you I do. But you’ll get through it, I know you will because you’ve been so strong so far and you know it gets better. Talk to someone, write it down, make a blog even, don’t keep it all in, how can anyone else understand when you don’t understand it yourself?
Good luck- ‘There has to be rain for there to be a rainbow’
Friend I understand I am 15 and went through a bad depression. I almost died 2 years ago, made some awful mistakes while young, made decisions that will affect me mentally for the rest of my life and I have a physical scar that will last. I do get it. But luckily I tried to fix my problems before I ended up like you. Peope always say I look mad, when really I am just brooding, I live through my mistakes and pain in my head to learn. You probably have a different story than me so here is my advice to you. First , do not hurt yourself it won’t help ever. I tried once and realized my problems stayed. Don’t talk down to yourself but try to make yourself better. Be more appealing to yourself so you can no longer put yourself down. Since your problem is others death you cannot actually fix your problem. I suggest therapy. As long as you try to stay positive and don’t hurt yourself your condition over time will get better.
Many people do not understand depression, not just yours. Depression is a medical condition like pneumonia or diabetes. Your hormones and a chemical imbalance is the problem for most depressions. See your MD. He can try some medication and counseling or refer you to someone. This is the best way. Read this for more info: http://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-condi…
I’ve had depression twice and went for counseling but also changed a few things at home. I stopped watching the news and reading the newspaper except for the comics. There is a lot of tragic things going on in the world and it is better not to over load your all ready depressed brain with these things. Your mother sounds supportive so talk to her about what is going on. Ask for help when you need it.
Did you watch the Oscars? If so you have already heard this. If not: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2015/02/22…
To help yourself at home start exercising, walking or swimming everyday. This will help with your weight, too.
Stop the negative talk and reverse it by saying you are pretty (or handsome), smart and a worthwhile person.
Eat more fruit and veggies. Find somewhere to volunteer: Church, animal shelter, Habitat for Humanity, library or hospital, although a hospital may want someone at least 16.